Saturday, October 4, 2008

Bad News Saturday

So the news for the day, no baby for me. I was so sure, over 3 weeks late, and just feeling like it was finally my time. And I was so wrong. Maybe it was some cruel joke to get my hopes up, and than have them crashing down.

I can't move right now, my fingers feel numb, I just want to cry, climb into bed and not get out. I hid in the bathroom and bawled for five minutes before GM started yelling for me. I feel like I'm going to be sick. Why can't this just be easy?

I have to tell the hubby tonight, and I'm not sure I can even find the right words. He was so excited. He should be calling on his lunch break soon, and I'm considering just turning off the phone. I don't want to say aloud the words that will crush our spirits once again.

I just feel lost...

2 comments:

Debateur said...

I'm so so sorry. That must be so hard.

AJ said...

I'm so sorry. When we were trying with our oldest son I don't remember how many times I got my heart broke with a big fat negative after being so sure it would be positive. It took 2 years for us to concieve. Good Luck and I will be thinking of you!