Today hubby brought up the idea of me going back to work. The little one will be starting kindergarten in the fall, and it seems that I am expected to find a job then.
Here's the thing about me: I hate being told what to do by anyone. Maybe it's the 5 year old in me, but being told to do something makes me want to do the exact opposite. I need it to by my decision, when I'm ready.
Granted, I went to college and finished up my degree while he worked. He took full responsibility of earning the money for awhile, but I've done the same for him when he was unemployed. The thing is, I like being at home. I want to be here to send my son off to school, I want to pick him up in the afternoon, I want to be that mom.
I just don't see the balance being there anymore. If that makes any sense. I'm fighting the idea of being away from my little one for a huge part of the day, and wanting to make the most out of the time we will see each other. It's so hard for me to see my little one suddenly seeming so grown up.
Any advice? How did you handle you kids going off to school for the first time?